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breakaway
Monday, November 10, 2008 // 7:57 AM

I even miss you even when you're right in front of my eyes.

I've been reading my past messages between me and you. I've not deleted those messages since 4th August 2008, three whole months of keeping all your messages with me and I can't bring myself to delete it. I don't know why. I miss those times oh-so-much, really I do. But I couldn't see why can't we bring those moments back? Are things really that different nowadays, love? Its just that I miss you, thinking and thinking about you every single second till I don't know what I'm doing.

Hah, messages and IM conversations, you're just one of the awesome-st craziest guy that I've ever been with. & its pretty much exciting(: People don't know what we've been through and you gotta agree with me that its tough but so cherish-able being together. I'm just out of words when people asked, "Why do you fall for Danial?" I can't explain by using words, you're one in a million. People somehow don't know the real us, yet. They don't know what we've done. They don't know what we've talked about. And they don't even know how we feel. Even best friends don't know what's really been going on with us. We're different than others. Its just crazy coming to think of it.

Those past conversations when we IM, when we messaged, when we were on the phone and sometimes when you walked me home, its so .. wonderful! Remember the days after exams? Ah that was good. I mean its eztraordinary. I knew your feelings, you knew mine. But right now, I couldn't tell. We don't really have those deep talks and thoughts now. It just bring me back home full of memories, it made laugh and it made me cry when coming to think back of it. Its true, we don't spent much time with each other just like we used to and I don't know what had gotten in our way. Is it really that bad now?

I'm not saying that I do not trust you, but I always have the mindset that its going away, its so unlike before. But I know that I really love you and my feelings simply doesn't fade since 8th August 2008. Right now, I feel invisible, like wow! Is that even a good thing? Is this the reason why I've been throwing my tantrums on you? I'm so sorry for that. Three months and it felt like a couple of years with you cos we've been through a lot together. But does people know that? No. They don't. Honestly, this is one of the most outstanding relationships I've ever been with.

Right now, you do not know what I'm feeling and I do not know yours too. I don't even know what I'm feeling. I'm not sad, I'm not angry nor disappointed but am I feeling happy like this? Only best friends know. Are you sure this is what they call puppy love? Or infatuation? Cos I'm feeling it in the inner me, so deep that I can't let go. I'm so glad that I get to be with you till this very day and I know it can go much further. I can't tell how much I love you, its just too impossible as its higher than the moon and stars.


Whoa, you wrote a paragraphs with 5 lines while I had mine with 5 paragraphs.
I love expressing my feeling using words, that's all.
Even though my English sucks, but yea its a great feeling.

i love you